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Celebrating the end of conversion ‘therapy’ in NZ

I breathed a massive sigh of relief last month when the government revealed plans to bring forward the ban on conversion ‘therapy’ in New Zealand and announced a timeline to have legislation in place before the middle of next year.

I want to take a moment just to send a huge congratulations and an even bigger thank you to all the LGBTQI+ advocates, activists and allies who have worked in so many ways, big and small, to get this safeguard underway. The Green Party’s Rainbow Spokesperson, Elizabeth Kerekere, quite rightly describes conversion ‘therapy’ as “torture for our rainbow community”.

If you would like some insider knowledge on what it is like to receive conversion ‘therapy’ and what it can actually look like in practice in New Zealand, check out Sherry Zhang’s article in the Spinoff and Trinity Thompson Brown’s first person account about surviving conversion therapy over at Re:News.

To be clear, conversion ‘therapy’ is not really a therapy at all. A therapy should be therapeutic, meaning it should have a net benefit effect on the person participating in it. Torture is never therapy. A therapy should resolve problems not invent them. Finding problems where there are none is not therapy. Discrimination, shaming, rejection, and ostracism are never therapy. These are forms of social control and coercion.

Zhang sums up what conversion ‘therapy’ really is for us when she writes, “Conversion therapy is a pseudoscientific technique that attempts to change or suppress someone’s sexual orientation or gender identity through shaming, emotional manipulation and/or physical trauma. The practice is primarily used within religious communities and has been linked to severe mental health issues, including depression and suicidal ideation.” Altogether now: this. is. not. what. therapy. looks. like. Full stop.

Here’s looking forward to 2022 when people subjected to this traumatising experience will have recourse in the law.

Lindah Lepou’s powerful story of survival

Lindah Lepou is a Samoan transwoman, fashion designer, artist, and performer who recently shared her story in the form of a long prose poem called Blah Blah Blah, as part of the Pacific Arts Legacy Project from Pantograph Punch and Creative NZ.

This is an intense but powerful story that takes you on Lindah’s journey through growing up trans in NZ and Samoa, navigating stigma and discrimination, surviving physical and sexual violence, dealing with suicidal urges, and discovering her identity and personal power.

Lindah opens her story with an acknowledgement to ‘Le Va’. I love this concept. It’s like an ancient, indigenous predecessor to social constructionism and family systems thinking.

Jemaima Tiatia-Seath defines Le Va as “the relational space that connects people, things and elements. The sacred space between, the space that binds independent entities together, the space that is context, the space that gives meaning to things. A space not solely observed by the individual but also executed at wider institutional and societal levels. Pacific peoples inhabit multiple social spaces, hold various roles, responsibilities and standing within their families, villages, churches and communities, occupy a range of experiences, by age, socioeconomic position, gender identity, sexual preference, birthplace, ethnicity, disability, and religious/spiritual affiliation. Genuine Pacific cultural competency embraces and values all diversity. (See: Tiatia-Seath, 2018, The importance of Pacific cultural competency in healthcare, Pacific Health Dialog; 21/1: 8-9.) That can start to sound a bit academic sometimes, but when you read a story like Lindah’s, or any recovery story really, the many intersections come to life.

Lindah writes, “Ona muamua Le VA. Blah blah blah blah blah… Soso‘o mai loa AITU. Blah blah blah blah blah… GAFA Sāmoa and Pālagi lineage. A family of multidimensional artists. Blah blah blah blah blah… Solo Sāmoan mother and absent Pālagi father. Blah blah blah blah blah… I was born in Wellington, New Zealand (1973). Blah blah blah blah blah… Transgender. I was an effeminate child named ‘Aaron Lepou’. Blah blah blah blah blah…”

Later, she continues, “Blah blah blah blah blah… I create ‘Lindah Lepou’ with all the courage and qualities I urgently need. I wanted to kill myself. Blah blah blah blah blah… Performing Artist. I started dancing to express myself and build self-confidence. Janet Jackson and En Vogue were my obsession. Blah blah blah blah blah…”

Read the rest of Lindah Lepou’s story on Pantograph Punch here.